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Interest post in twitter

2011-12-08T20:55:00.001+07:00

Never underestimate the power of stupid people in large numbers. #twitterland

My beloved pampam rests in peace

2011-12-07T22:28:00.001+07:00

11 oct 2011, my pampam has passed away.. He closed his eyes for forever at 13.00 wib in Marzuki Mahdi hospital. There was me, keikei, my mother, mak ani, and pak Bahtiar at that moment when he take his last breath.

2 hours before he died, we just had a 'memorable' conversation ever, he ask me to move closer and ask me bout his illnesses, 'this is healing process, or a way to death?' Literally said that. I answered, we (family, all docters, medicine) do the best pam.. We would called it healing process because we want you to be heal.. If you asked me about the death, its none of our business, its Allah SWT's. if Allah wants, I could be death before you.. So all you have to do is relax and let Allah do the rest..we do our best.. After said that, he replied clearly, he said, this is the answer I would like to hear.. Now I'm relax..

Then he's gone.. So peaceful and tender.. I guess the angels love him too.. :')

Goodbye Pampam.. I know I'm not a good daughter for you.. And I'm sorry for all my mistakes.. Please God, take good care of him.. He is really a great dad.. And had a great heart :')

I love you, even I never say it in front of you..
But I love you.. See you soon Pam..

2011-09-20T14:38:00.001+07:00

pic was taken on 30 aug 2011

keikei hampir jalan :P dikampung gajah bandung

Ied h+2

hijab and simplicity

2011-09-15T16:30:00.001+07:00

im wearing hijab now. ill show it when it transferred to my computer. its none of those things, when ppl ask what inspired me to wear hijab all in a sudden, its not because of hidayah - or else. its just happen in a day. in a good way. i like it. simple.

my baby is sleeping so that i have this me time, at it killing me so bad when i have to type silently in a keyboard otherwise it'll so noisy.. errrrgghh

well, ive been enjoying so much my simply life, it has been nice.. we went to Bogor and Bandung on Ied holiday, meet my sisters was the happiest gift ever. I even think to have another 3 more daughters. um. on a second think, umm no thanks. my baby, shes 14mos now, still learn to walk and bumbling, but shes yell 'Ayah' soo clearly when she meant it.so proud and happy with my little family.

xoxo

i have been the same

2011-08-13T18:56:00.000+07:00

its down again, like me in the same way same thought
there are loads words in my head that i cant figure it out
like i was gonna writing a song, a words with no place
its just a script.
its bunch and its beautiful if you seen it from afar
its like the feeling when you heard Bedshaped - Keane all over again
and hear it laud from a speaker in a sunset road
nobody could feel it anyway
i have a little princess begging me hold her right now
and im still missing my old song
missing it so bad

its been a long time

2011-07-15T21:47:00.001+07:00

Resume a little bit of life
i had resigned my job for some worth reason for my baby almost 6 months.
being a full time mother is exhausting. stressing.
i dont have a me time at all.
but in the other way now keep thinking to have another baby.
watching and seeing and being a part of keikei's grown up is -priceless
keikei is all over the places, mind, heart. shes everything.

she will turn 1yos this Monday, we will celebrate it with finest friend.
will do post some pic if i can

Oleh oleh lebaran

2010-09-27T16:48:00.000+07:00

Hai. walau blog2ku ga punya followers dan jarang juga orang baca.
gw pede aja menyapa. Hai.

Kmaren lebaran akhirnya kami sekeluarga bisa pulang. dapet tiket murah. asik banget ketemu keluarga.
Kami pulang pas malam takbiran, hari pertama kami ke bogor. ngasih surprise buat mamah (yang ga kami kasi tau klo kami pulang) - yang akhirnya surprise nya ga terlalu surpise soalnya gw dan abang update status di twitter dan fb. Lupa klo nyokap maniak Fb juga.

Pas ketauan langsung ade gw yang juga gw ajak kongkalingkong (apa sih bahasa benernya) pura2 telp gw sambil bilang "aahh lu ant, nipu kita2 sangkain beneran dibandara soeta, ternyata boong ya" alhasil nyokap sempet ketipu juga. sampe rumah nyokap liat kita dan... loncat loncat sambil teriak. ahaha. nyokap gw banget.

hari ke2 lebaran kita ke bandung sekeluarga. lumayan. melepas kangen sama LOMIE hahahaha. intinya liburan kemaren menyenangkan :) it was Kei's first flight. walau sebenernya bawa bayi 1.5 bulan masih dilarang (aturan penerbangan membawa bayi lebih dr 3 bulan saja) tapi kami nekat. berangkatnya Kei anteng di pesawat. pas balik ke DPS dia menjerit2 dengan lantangnya pas landing. Kasian, mungkin telinganya sakit akibat perbedaan tekanan ama suara bising pesawat. selebihnya its all about FUN.

Alhamdulilah ya Allah. :)

Kenar Delya Sindoro

2010-09-08T16:32:00.002+07:00

So that is my Princess's name.
They used to call her Kei instead of ncess.
Ncess is too controversial.
I insist to call her that way anyway.
at least until she feels embareesed :)

be a new mom is stressful and delightful at the same time.
Im still learning to be a good mother.
but i know i will be, and my princess will proud of me someday :)

oya, this is our first Lebaran day without our family.
wish us luck -on how we manage our feeling- ;p

morning learn

2010-05-01T08:49:00.003+07:00

People are sometimes unacceptable ridiculous
we make things complicated so do they
They do political ways of their social justification
I make my self to adopt better or just be my self
Be my self doesn't mean right
Adopt and accept also doesn't mean good

Life is suppose to be simple
We breath
We kissed
We hug
We laugh
We cry
then we die.

And the morning is for you - And the air is free - And the birds sing for you - And your positivity
Suede - positivity

pic taken from here

speak english

2010-03-25T16:46:00.001+07:00

This is a true story. My -friend of spongebob- Bos had just interviewed
some candidate to become a staff in housekeeping.
and they all being screwed coz they could not speak english
altough they only here for 3 month training send by their school,
they apparently have to speak English.
if they dont, they just have to listen to my Bos speech
- which is obviously they dont even understand it.
a few moment later, my boss got upset and out of his office and said

ANTIK DO YOU HAVE FRIEND WHO SPEAK ENGLISH WHO
WANNA BE HOUSEKEEPING STAFF?

and i said "i only have a friend who speak french Pak. Sorry"

I try to teach my baby to be good

2010-03-22T09:01:00.000+07:00

Starting today, I will following up the things which is mostly came from my own brain
I have to control my feeling if suddenly appear a moment
- when usually my most tendency appear to kill someone
or not to say unnecessarily and unimportant comments to say
- to a person whom make me wanna puke when i saw their faces.
oh, they said this must be a pregnancy hormonal-or something
to be more active in hate people?

or to learn how to be more mature to handling the up and downs of life and accepting the person like you have also a weaknesses?

Nyepi Day (Silence Day)

2010-03-13T09:34:00.004+07:00

Determined by the Lunar (Saka 1932) Calendar if Bali, Nyepi (Balinese New Year) falls on the day after the new moon that occurs on 16 of march 2010. Nyepi is perhaps the most unique of all festivals celebrated in Bali, as the whole island comes to a standstill on this particular day. Visitors to Bali at this time of the year definitely need to be aware of the day of Nyepi, as they will not be able to go anywhere on this day, but rather spend time relaxing around their place of accommodation.

The most interesting part of Nyepi for visitors is the visual spectacles of ogoh-ogoh (monsters) created by many of the villages throughout Bali to be used as a part of a huge island-wide exorcism on the eve of Nyepi. The youth of the various village banjar (local council areas) take great delight in competing with the neighbouring villages to create the most gruesome and terrifying-looking ogoh-ogoh in the month preceding Nyepi.

On the day of Nyepi (literally meaning 'silence') the whole of Bali lies still. There is no one out on the streets, nothing opens in the way of shops or offices, the sound of traffic is nonexistent. This Day of Silence is where the world has been cleansed & everything starts anew. With the religious prohibitions of mati lelangon (no pleasure) mati lelungan (no traffic) mati geni (no fire) and mati pekaryan (no work)beginning at sunrise continuing for the next 24 hours, all you will hear is the occasional barking of dogs or the shrill of insects. You will not be allowed to go anywhere on this day, but rather relax at your place of accommodation, enjoying the peace quiet of an otherwise bustling island.

Text taken from news later front office department - di hotel tempat saya bekerja

guitar

2010-03-11T15:15:00.002+07:00

Aduh pengen maen gitar
atau punya gitar

atau dibeliin gitar ;)

if you

2010-03-06T11:08:00.001+07:00

when you have faith in paint, then paint, if you are about to write then write,
if you do shoot then shoot.
when it is become blur, enjoy it..
when it is not necessary anymore to be blur, be focus..
i'll be near

heartbeat

2010-03-03T10:28:00.000+07:00

its a heartbeat that i heard yesterday.
God. its sooo indescribable amazing :)

kedut kedut

2010-02-18T09:59:00.010+07:00

sampah sampah sampah

tulisan ini hanya berisi sampah

hanya kedut2an (yang masih belum jelas) itu,

yang bisa menghibur sekarang

big head big head big head

trash trash trash

even its shadows is killing me

oh GOD

this is so rubbish

im just like a broken hearted teenager

trash trash trash

picture taken from here

Shut

2010-02-17T14:33:00.001+07:00

aah bacot!
im totally disturbed by your disgusting accent!
its so disturbing the existence and the equilibrium the nature-of my life!

Grey

2010-02-11T12:32:00.003+07:00

Another step to Grey ahead
Leave the Grey present and before
conquering the Grey moment and be black or be colour
me and baby prefer Grey good :)

Picture taken from here

am i obviously change?

2010-02-09T10:28:00.005+07:00

i used to yelled back when i heard thunder - just like creed said-,
but now i just called his name and hiding in his warm hands.
am i obviously change? is it good? or is it wrong?

ooh i hate a lot of people nowdays :(
forgive me

sense of wording

2009-12-23T09:47:00.003+07:00

multiple identity
green eye
script monologue
loadable
validate me
text manipulation
mess to messes

karya

2009-12-21T14:03:00.002+07:00

Selalu tergugah setelah membaca satu dua karya, atau melihat dan merasakan berbagai karya.

menyadari tidak bisa sepenuhnya ada dan mengadakan diri di dunia maha karya seni tersebut, kadang saya menyesal. saya bisa bergaul lebih baik lagi dulu-kalau saya mau- dan saya bisa menciptakan karya-kalau dulu saya tidak berenti les piano- saya bisa saja menghibur diri lebih sering-kalau saja saya terus mendalamai bermain gitar- dan sebagainya dan sebagainya

sekarang saya hanya penikmat dan pengagum saja. Saya senang melihat teman2 begitu bebas berbicara tentang karya nya, kehidupannya, dan kehidupan sosialnya yang saya artikan juga sebagai karya.

Mereka indah-tanpa mengurangi rasa kalau pastinya mereka juga punya suatu kekurangan- tapi tampaknya mereka selalu sempurna berkarya. saya kembali sirik.

Saya mengerti sekali keindahan, walau orang mengartikannya berbeda beda dan dalam konteks yang berbeda pula, ingin sekali saya menyumbang sesuatu yang indah, kata orang saya pun punya sesuatu yg bisa saya sumbang, tapi rasanya ada sesuau yang membatas nya. keperluan keperluan lain, kepentingan kepentingan yang saya buat sendiri adalah batasannya. jika dulu saya mau saya pasti saya bisa.

hamil

2009-12-15T16:42:00.003+07:00

-delate for some reason-

oya, im pregnant.
yeay, its kind like a present for my 10th anniversary (21st nov) relationship -we're not used to celebrate wedding anniversary-yet anyway..so on that date, i woke my husband and show my two lines testpack. happy anniversary then, my husband :) and happy dad-to-be :) :)

people=shit

2009-10-12T20:43:00.003+07:00

for some people being shit is ok. to admit that they are shit is hard.
i see closely a shitty person.. he is too good to be that bad.
a person who always being shit for almost of his life,
and pretending that he's good at the same time. and he feels fine.

just when i found it too hard to face, then i just have close the eyes, think the tender of that breath.. that nose that i kissed, that sunset and sound of the beach, and finally i got your face in my dream. then you come to tell me that you've been dream of me as well..

this is too pathetic. too dramatically insane. too much..

hide

2009-09-29T22:02:00.002+07:00

But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

colbie cailat - bubby -

bersin

2009-08-28T14:46:00.001+07:00

Ternyata bersin tuh membuat lapar.. jadi klo ga napsu makan, bersin aja ;)

hubby's accident

2009-08-14T10:56:00.001+07:00

yesterday my hubby got an accident.
no more words to say.
:(

FAKE

2009-08-10T20:06:00.004+07:00

all in this world are fake! they dont even exist!
they just kicking their ass and licking it at the same time!
they obviously dont understand it all! but they keep talk, talk and argue with the same old craps!
they dont listen!
they think that they strong enough to face the world!
they always make a fucking bullshit!
they keep singing their ugly dirty songs!
they dont stop!
they went to the funeral and drunk in the night with a whore they find in the street! they create a paint but they dont really understand and throw it all in a sudden!
they think they know all the shitty bitches in the beach, but they dont ever touch the sand yet!
they just fake!

new office

2009-08-06T15:30:00.002+07:00

Quite good, this is my 4th day here.
im began to know some of people's characters.
they absolutely human. thanks God.
Im still in the earth.
;)

i wanna be mind reader

2009-07-20T14:38:00.002+07:00

Di serial heroes, tadinya yang gw pikir kemampuannya outstanding adalah peter petrelli, kemampuannya yang bisa menyerap kemampuan semua orang bikin dia jadi pahlawan. tapi eneg ga sih lu klo semua harus lu yang tanggung karena cuma lu yang bisa kontrol semua. semua pun pasti capek klo harus over-responsible untuk setiap kejadian didunia.

Itu di film, coba kalau ternyata lu terlahir dengan kemampuan seperti itu hidup in a real world, dan ternyata yang meledak di ritz carlton adalah lu sebagai peter petrelli yang ga bisa kontrol semua ability yang udah lu serap. hahaha.. nice ending. jadi ga harus ada yang namanya teroris.

So, if i could choose, i just wanna be a mind reader. just like Matt Parkman. tokoh ini sebenernya adalah tokoh yang paling ga gw suka. fat, an officer for the LAPD who want to be a detective, and um.. fat. i dont like him psychically. but i like his ability. Matt also discovers his ability allows for him to implant thoughts into other people's mind, um.. i have to be honest that maybe i need it sometimes, not only for being a mind reader. :lol:

Why? i wanna know what people's mind. thats it.

MJ

2009-06-26T14:29:00.000+07:00

Inalilahiwainnailaihi rojiun
telah meninggal Michael Jackson.

dia muslim kan?

begitu

2009-06-26T14:16:00.003+07:00

begitu sayang nya aku dengan suamiku,
sampai aku lupa bagaimana rasanya sayang itu sendiri.

kata orang jangan suka sesuatu yang berlebihan.
itu mungkin maknanya.

oh boy, sayang itu cuma huruf S disambung A trus ada Y dilanjutin A lagi pake N dan G.
yg ribet itu embel2nya.

foto update

2009-06-26T10:23:00.003+07:00

ini foto bersama robi.

butuh suntikan semangat

2009-06-24T11:49:00.001+07:00

Semangat dosis 500mg 3x1
:jusss:

semoga balasannya surga

2009-06-22T12:10:00.000+07:00

...
...
...

blame

2009-06-10T09:06:00.004+07:00

I keep spoke a lot, I keep asked, I keep gave u bunch of questions.
It is surely for a reason. Why?
think!

job

2009-06-08T16:15:00.002+07:00

I should find a new job. or activities.
hangin there ant!

fine

2009-06-07T09:03:00.004+07:00

And, it happened again yesterday. I know I will never find the end.

Fine if you were wrong. Fine if you were not good.
Fine if you were naughty.Fine if you don't want to tell me.
Fine if you will do it your way.
Fine if you want to make it happen again.
Fine if you were lying. Fine if you like it.
Fine if you did mistake. Fine.

I just need a rest, then I can walk again.

hold my breath

2009-06-06T09:06:00.005+07:00

well well well,
What do i missed?
Food? friends? family? obviously.
The skies bright today, a few days ago, the plane flew away again just right above me when I get through that road..and i felt.. it isnt really about my trully feelin, anyway, so we'll pass it. well..
I've friends here, but they speak different language.
and you know what? I have to go. I cant even find a fine covered here.

present

2009-04-11T11:53:00.012+07:00

@nusadua, bangun tidur.. ngejar sunrise ;)

reply resign email

2009-03-27T13:59:00.007+07:00

waks, ternyata balesan dari " para petinggi" nun jauh di belanda sangat menyentuh hati,
Pak Karst reply:
"Dear Antique
I wish you all the best in Bali and thanks for your assistance in the last two years
I know everybody was very enthusiastic about it
We will miss you
All the best
Karst”

Dari Pak Anton:
“Dear Antique
I am very sorry to hear that you will leave Inowa.
For me it has been a pleasure working with you and speaking French.
I want to thank you for all the work you’ve done for me. I do hope that you will find very much happiness in Bali. But you follow your heart. That is a good thing to follow in life.
I think that with the recommendation letters that Pak Joko will give to you, you’ll find a new job in Bali – if you want – in one moment.
Every company will be glad to have Ibu Antique working for them.
J’espère que votre vie va très bien dans la future et que vous va recevoir beaucoup de bonheur.
Kind regards
Anton”

Pak Peter said:
“Dear Antique,
Didn’t Inowa open an office in Bali to keep you inside the firm?????????
Thank you for the fine cooperation. I enjoyed our trip to Samboja and the day in Bandung with you and Leo.
Thank you and hope to see you some day in Bali.
Warmest regards
Peter”

resignation

2009-03-25T13:38:00.007+07:00

saat nya resign.. setelah melewati pemikiran yang panjang tiba juga saat resign. sempet googling di internet bagaimana cara menyampaikan resignation letter yang baik, eh ketemu ini di sini

lucu juga bacanya.. hheehe.. tapi gw memutuskan untuk menulis surat resign yang formal sajah (hayah, yaiyalah..) :)

Over reacted

2009-02-09T16:04:00.001+07:00

I try not to be over reacted to every single things happened.
I’m happy. I get married finally.
The preparation was exhausted and the result was great.
I love my husband and I love my life.

ada ga?

2009-01-08T22:05:00.003+07:00

ada ga yang pernah ngerasa sakit hati ama gw?

another step

2009-01-08T19:15:00.010+07:00

"trus maksudnya apa?" hahaha.. barusan ade gw tanya..huehehehe.. banyak ihh yang terjadi oh my GOd. pokoknya gw udah hampir naik satu step lagi nih. tanggal 3 january kmaren gw 2* tahun. huahahaha. dah tua uy..

bentar lagi gw nikah.

aaahhh, gw ibu ibuuuu.. *lebay*

well well, setelah banyak yang liat comment akhir2 ttg blog gw, katanya banyak yang bilang blog gw mengharu biru gitu isinya. banyak galau teu penting. iya juga siy.. baelah nya, kan hidup gw baruuu aja segini, banyak yang lagi gw hadepin.. kadang2 gw juga ngerasa klo gw emosian banget akhir2 ini.. its not the way like i want it like that.. tapi perempuan memang sentimentil, right? InsyaAllah semua yang gw alamin jadi pengalaman berharga aja. caelaaaaahh..

lagipula, blog seseorang kan di ciptakan terserah untuk orang yang bikinnya kann? so, mau berisi tentang kehidupan pribadi gw, informasi2 ga penting, atau mau dibikin se-majalah mungkin kayak orang2 keren diluar sana yang nulis-kayaknya dah jadi nasi bagi dirinya-, ya itu terserah. yang penting ga ngeganggu.

aaaand,.. bout getting married, I'm sooo damn exited. pas lamaran emang rada aneh. gw gak deg2an!! my two best friend yang dateng ke acara lamarannya malah yang tangannya pada dingin n deg2an.. hihihi.. love them! they're the best and they're funny!

oya, ada orang2 yang dengan khasnya nempel di otak gw. they will always be there. nothing can erase it. but life goes on. I'm happy with it!!

hmm.. gw masukin aja kli ya undangan-informal gw disini.. tapi bukan undangan terbuka yaa.. hihihihi

tangan kiri

2008-12-16T18:13:00.010+07:00

tangan kiri gw tiba2 rada berat.
yang pertama cincin tunangan. bogor. 13.12.08
yang kedua infus. borromeus. 15.12.08

questions

2008-12-07T13:22:00.006+07:00

berkurang sedikit bukan berarti hilang kan?
ga yakin dikit bukan berarti ga percaya kan?
takut dikit bukan berarti dia jahat kan?
ga ketemu bukan berarti ga bisa bareng kan?

heal

2008-12-04T17:49:00.007+07:00

Lunch time , I found ayam kalasan with “weird” recipient, I ate it heartily.
Suddenly I received phone and say “hsi” easily. I was feeling released.
I don’t give a d**m anymore. I spoke with her bout her interest joining writing club, I feel also enthusiastic...
and when it comes to rain, I feel God must send us miracle.
Eventhough I don’t have an umbrella, now.
Then I couldn’t stop working, reading emails, give and check disposition,
then, I ~~make~~ plan to make new name card for my bos, happily.
after that I wrote reply email for some one in Malaysia with hope and excitement!
hey, Whats wrong with me?
do I look like healed s'thing?

say

2008-12-03T15:56:00.003+07:00

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

john mayer - say

judged!

2008-11-28T17:24:00.005+07:00

Eurrgghhh! Masih aja ada orang-orang yang suka nge-judged! Gw kemarin bermaksud baik, dengan ke-ngalah-an hati sengaja “berbasa basi” untuk ngeredain keadaan yang ga enak. Tapi dia kalakah ngebacot penuh judgment yang datengnya cuma dari pemikiran dia dan segelintir kecil “kelompoknya”. What thaa?? Gw masih aja dianggep anak kecil untuk memutuskan yang menurut gw “fair enough” untuk hidup gw. Udah deh cukup jugdement2nya. I know my life better than you, and please don’t remind me AGAIN how miserable my family’s history since ~~my father become jobless~~ ever!. It is always giving me courage to live my life TOUGHER than you all know! If you want me happy, just PRAY for me not judged me, please!

hh… Just want to spilled this s**t out. I don’t mean this way. I know I have premenstrual syndrome today, and its not everybody’s right to judged that it always women’s fault for being absurd then they have that syndrome. Its just happened.

9 yearS

2008-11-21T11:30:00.004+07:00

stimes, we need a self detention. when we still cannot avoid the temptation of playing the games...we chased life that we want to live. Path that we walked, decisions that we made, guy that we want to make love with. It’s just life. I want else!

happy 9th yearS anniversary, bang..
with you it is not “just” life..

prasangka buruk

2008-11-19T15:50:00.004+07:00

oh my GOd. itu orang yah aneh banget sikapnya ama gw. kalau ke orang lain dia sikapnya biasa aja. apalagi kalau sama cowo. maapkan klo gw suuzon, tapi perasaan ga bisa boong kan? she knows something? dari caranya mandang gw, kayaknya dia tau sesuatu dan ga suka gitu dengan (mungkin) sikap gw. tapi sikap gw yang manaaa? masa sih gw segitu nistanya dimata dia jadi klo lagi ngobrol pun kayak nyembunyiin sesuatu. kayaknya dari matanya ngomong :"i know something.. i know something" eeuggh.. its really annoying.

aaaaaand its wierd, kadang aku suka mikir klo orang itu bisa baca pikiran gw.

vanish

2008-11-11T17:11:00.016+07:00

jreng.
gw posting lagi.
lagi ga terlalu banyak kerjaan juga.
masih bindeng suara gw. gara2 radang tenggorokan nih. kecapean mungkin ya.. udara bandung yang lagi ga bersahabat banget tambah tambah keseringan pulang malem... ordinary causes for ordinary illnesses

tapi sekonyong konyong gw dah siap untuk karokean lagi tonighttttt..
yes tonighttt!! Hahhahahaha *lebay*

karokean tuh nyandu lagi.. kayak ngrokok… kayak ngopi.. kayak teh botol.. hehe..sekali datang karokean ga mungkin dong cuma sejam pastilah minimal dua jam, setiap dua jam itu kita dikasih lagi free pas untuk dipake selanjutnya.. kitu wee teruss.. hehe… karokean jadi salah satu sarana dimana ~~orang orang bisa denger suara merdu gw~~ orang bisa ngelupain segala gundah gulana di hati.

talking bout gundah gulana, gw dah minta ijin ama yang empunya blog kalau kalimat terakhir dipostingannya itu akan gw kutip di sini. Tepat banget untuk gw sekarang. Ada satu hal yang ngeganjel. Sebenernya gw mau banget deal with problems apapun itu. Dan gw terbiasa untuk itu. Tapi hari ini, tepat waktu gw buka mata, gw maleeessssss banget untuk ngehadepinnya. Gw ga mau usaha ngubah suasana jadi enak lagi, diobrolin, diselesaiin, whatevaaahhhhhh. Pokoknya gw ga mau ngapa2in untuk nyeleseinnya. Bukan karena ga ada penyelesaiannya, cuma ga mau aja. *kumaha beungeut aing weeee- kinnda spirit* Dan ternyata ketemu kalimat itu :

“Sometimes, problem is vanished in the way that you don’t understand.
Just vanish.”..

In, you’re truly my today-inspirational-girl!! Dunno whether u’ve got the same problem or not, but yes, it vanish. I just need to relax and don’t think about it at all. Its just another stories of my ups and downs, perhaps. So I aint gonna say : “lets face it” now.. Sometimes I just have to wait and see. See that it’ll heal in a secret way...

seserius itukah curhatan gw? Ternyata oh ternyata gw sangat melankolis. Dan oh ya, ternyata cape juga jadi orang yang terlalu ”over evaluated”. Udah ah. Sekarang giliran orang orang yang benar benar belajar empati ama gw. *maksa* hehehe..
well ok, its 5 o’clock already.. harus nanya dulu ke yang lain dah pada siap blom karoken 6 jam-eun.

FYI, sekonyong konyong is originality sentence often used by restee. So ask her for further information.

hampir hectic

2008-11-06T15:04:00.005+07:00

hampir hectic nih.. i hate hectic! semuanya serba rusuh, serba gak tenang.

harus bisa bagi konsentrasi ke beberapa hal sekaligus. antara schedule ama thesis.antara handuk warna warni dan jumlah porsi gubugan. antara karokean ama makan di HDL.. antara blogging dan plurking.. oya antara nyuci baju, nyetrika dan ngejemur.. fiuuhhh...

tapi gw enjoy, InsyaAllah se-enjoy hasilnya nanti. amiiinn..
doain ya..

details in the fabrics

2008-11-05T13:25:00.010+07:00

Wondering, what exactly the writer thought when he wrote his song?
he has broken hearted?

"If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it....".

j'aime bien cette chanson..
"details in the fabrics - jason mraz".

hate

2008-10-30T09:06:00.005+07:00

I hate that I have to work everyday.

underground

2008-10-20T16:04:00.005+07:00

i know where i should go.
I'm goin' deeper underground.
there's too much panic in this town.

time

2008-10-20T15:19:00.006+07:00

maybe I'll keep this blog private for a while.
maybe i just need a space
a room. alone. a distance.
feel like i want to run. but I don't have a place to hide.
I'm too difficult.
hope time will heal everything.

si molen merdeka

2008-09-04T16:15:00.006+07:00

Kayaknya pertemanan juga jodoh2an deh. Pernah ga sih lu ngrasa ada seseorang disana yang bener2 lu sayangin dan lu ngrasa cocok banget. Segimanapun lu beda pendapat atau beda pemikiran, lu bisa tarik titik tengah diantara perbedaan itu. Pernah juga ga sih lu ngrasa klo lu bisa bener2 tulus mahamin dia dengan segala kekurangannya, bahkan kadang2 lu ngrasa klo dia emang ga ada kekurangannya.

Kayaknya gw pernah punya deh. Satu.
Dan gw kayaknya menyia2kannya begitu saja. Demi masa muda dan cinta belaka. Egois dan ga pikir panjang. Jiaaa... tapi bener, sekarang gw kangen. Dia (tanpa dia sadari/ engga), dia udah kasih banyak pengalaman berharga banget dalam hidup gw. Kesederhanannya. cara pandang nya. Cara dia memperjuangkan hal-hal yang patut diperjuangkan, kehangatan keluarganya, semua.

Jadi sewaktu-waktu gw ngerasa lagi ga puas ama lingkungan gw, ga puas ama temen2 gw, pasangan bahkan waktu gw ga suka ama diri gw sendiri, gw suka mikir cara mikir dia. Dan gw suka malu. Dia pasti tepat ngambil sikap dan tindakan. Gw mau jadi kayak dia. Jadi yang lebih baik. Yang ga selalu mikirin hal hal keduniawian. Dan dia begitu.
Biasanya juga kalau lagi kangen. Gw suka sms dia. Dan dia gapernah ga bales. Dan ga pernah ga nice. Dia selalu ada. Paling ga di hati gw.

Take good care friend,

aang + ranma + ym

2008-08-26T13:18:00.004+07:00

Kmaren2 gw sok sibuk gitu. Padahal ga juga. Disibuk2in wee.. biar rada ada pengalihan dari mood yang suka ga jelas.
Hehehe.. well, Ada apa nih sekarang?
...
Couple weeks ago I had just finished avatar book 3. saosin comet.
Great as I expected. Water, air, earth and fire all united in aang’s force to fight fire lord, who only has fire bend. Aang won. But there is much than just a win. He found the “nice” way to kill fire lord without killing him. But I love sokka very much from southern water rather than aang or zuko. He extremely cute with his silly and spontaneous act! He even thought that appa eat Momo!!! Hahaha.. What ridicule!
Kayaknya ntar bakalan ada book 4 deh walau masih dalam gossip2 dalam millis. Yang bikin yakin episode terakhirnya kan zuko nanya ama bokapnya dmn ibunya, dan bokapnya ga jawab.. dibikin ngambang gitu.. nah kannn…
Sekarang gw lagi serius mau namatin ranma ½. Hehe.. another martial arts kinda cartoon.

Kejadian sebelum makan siang:
Sebenernya lagi males chat, apa lagi klo buka di Y!m klo ada yang ngajak ngobrol suka kuning2 gitu di taskbar..
Tapi bisi ada yg perlu ma gw, atau siapa tau ada yang kangen.. gw online aja deh…
…
Wndows – mozzila – speed dial no1
Ouverture de session yahoo
Définissez votre statut de Messenger
...
status gw apa ya hr ini.. umm.. available aja dey
Chargement... hmm.. loading..
ok, done. Im available berhubung yahoo mail gw bahasa prancis, jadi "available"nya tulisannya jadi "disponible"
tapi ah biar lucu pake personnel status aja ah(maksudnyah biar org2 juga liat status gw as a "disponible" kikikkkkk
ngetik...
ok done. Status gw ”disponible!”
beberapa menit kemudian
louis fernando: apa itu disponible?
louis fernando: rambut lo kaga bisa diponi?

huahaahahahaha… fernando fernandooo !!!

a million miles away. rihanna

2008-08-08T18:33:00.008+07:00

Here we lay face to face once again
Silence cuts like a knife as we pretend.
And I'm wondering who will be to first to say what we both know
We're just holding on to could have beens and we should be letting go.

It feels like your a million miles away as your lying here with me tonight.
I can't even find the words to say
I can find a way to make it right
And we both know that the story's ending
We play the part but we're just pretending
And I can't hide the tears cause even though your here
It feels like your a million miles away.

Was it me, or was it you that broke away?
For what we were is like a season
Love is change and every time I think about it
It tears me up inside.
Like the rivers of emotion but I got no more tears to cry

We can try to talk it over but we walked that road before
While our song is playing its last note
We both know for sure that it's time to close that door...

dangdud

2008-08-04T16:51:00.004+07:00

“I can’t stand to be far from your sight, but it should remain as it should be…”

dangdut banget kalimat gw.

dont know whether this is appropriate or not hihihihi

2008-08-01T17:23:00.008+07:00

Percakapan percakapan bisnis antara gw dan si Obos

Di bandara sukarno Hatta waktu mau pergi ke Balikpapan, few months ago. Di KFC foodcourt.
Bos : Tik
Gw : hah
Bos : di depan kita ada yang pake stoking garis2 kayak zebra
Gw : oh.. ho oh.. (*tampang masa bodoh)
Bos : eh, tik, masa cewe itu minta pakein koyo di bahunya gitu didepan saya, tuh liat tik
Gw : oh.. iya.. (*tampang masa bodoh sekali)
Bos : dia teh curi2 pandang gt tik ke sayah
Gw : halah ge er, mana mau Mulan Jameela ama Bapak
(*tampang agak mau muntah)
Bos : ....

Seminggu yang lalu (pas family gathering di Waterbom) pembagian doorprize
Bos : ok, selanjutnya siapa yang beruntung mendapatkan blender!! Nomer undian 41!!
Gw : (dalem hati) jirrr.. urang
Gw : (maju kedepan dengan manyun)
Bos : (didepan seluruh karyawan dan keluarga besar)Nah, ini niihh satu2 nya yang dapet dorprize tapi ga seneng, soalnya dari kmaren dah ngarep tipi 21 inch slim ato grandprize nginep ke Sampireun!! hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Sehari yang lalu, 31 juli 2008 16.00 WIB, via iphone:
Gw : Pak, bapak besok ke Manado?
Bos : iya
Gw : Lha, kok ga bilang2 Paaaak??
Bos : ya tikkk, masa sih blom saya bilang?
Gw : Blom Pakkkk.. sampe kapan?
Bos : 5 hari sampe selasa, rabu masuk kantor...
Gw : ... yes, I’m free
Bos : heuuhh

Waktu Obos ke US Embassy (percakapan beberapa jam yang lalu di telp):
Gw : Haloh, knp Pak?
Bos : dari mana aja antik? Ditelp in ga ada...
Gw : beli lumpia basah didepan smp 7
Bos : emang udah jadwalnya yah?
Gw : iya, kan udah jam setengah 4 sore, waktunya jajan
Bos : oh, jadi jam setengah 4 jadwalnya beli lumpia basah?
Gw : gak juga sih Pak. Kadang2 juga beli cilok, kentang sosis, cireng
Bos : ....

beberapa detik yang lalu
Bos : halo, wah.. tumben tik blom pulang jam segini
Gw : iya dong pak.. biar masuk kriteria karyawan teladan biar dapet paket UMROH
Bos : HAH, BILANG aja datengnya jam 1/2 10 td pagi. kan?!! biasanya kan gitu
Gw : ....

Solitude usually dont really give troubles

2008-07-15T10:13:00.007+07:00

This is just fuckin bloody at fault.
Solitude usually not really gave troubles.
This is consisting of coffee, sugar, sand, and golf ball in one of empty glass.
This is my life. Complete enough.
Wishing for something that will over in a twinkle of an eye.
Fingers rise begging something in the middle of the night.
Hope receive something answers at once.
Here or nowhere. But it came to nothing.

he is an essai, sedangkan aku pilihan ganda... gosh..

Boven de dohnen

2008-07-02T13:35:00.005+07:00

Boy : Pagi antik....how r u today?
Me : Fine, a little bit ridiculous...
Boy : Why?
Me : Yesterday Rida announced that Family Gathering will be held at 26 July... and then she said that if anyone want to register, please do
it immediately
Me : and this morning, I opened my Microsoft .office and read about its message.
Me : I realize I haven’t register yet
Me : I suddenly pushed "reply to all" button,
Me : and I wrote: DA, GW DAFTAR AMA SUAMI GW. HUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. GW TELAT MULU IH DA. SEBEL (maksudnya gw mau berkeluh kesah ke rida tentang kebiasaan gw datang ke kantor telat mulu)
Me : Gosh. And it sent to all employees including all the managers (I have no worried with My Bos’s mail box, coz I can easily erase it) well, sound ridiculous right? and it happened in the morning
Me : Just exactly when I want to start a new day without stupid things like that
Me : Buzz !
Me : Comment please ?
Boy : sorry...
Boy : ada masalah urgent lagi di lapangan..
Boy : Comment ya.. umm…
Boy : Boven de dohnen

Note: dengan sedikit penyesuaian mempertimbangkan etika penulisan yang baik dan benar.

happy birthday Gal...

2008-06-29T09:54:00.005+07:00

June 26th 2008

Lieve, brother.. happy birthday.
Load of words to say to you, but I couldn’t find the right one now.
So, I gave u that CD. Those songs aren’t my expressions or feelings that I want to tell you.
Its just song I truly love. And I want to share it with you.
I enjoyed it and I hope you do to. And these songs inspired me in some point, and hope you u inspired by them too...
Let me describe a bit bout the song:

First track, coldplay – shiver:
You already got the point why I put this song in the track, so I won’t explain further.

Second track, from Travis – flowers in the windows:
My favorite song.
I love this part: “There is no reason to feel bad. But there are many seasons to feel glad, sad, mad. It's just a bunch of feelings that we have to hold, but I am here to help you with the load...”
It breathed my life into, tries to always give our beloved courage, when they need it the most, and was it sweetest things to say, when we always ready help them with their load...? love it!

Next, song from Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova - falling slowly:
From “once” movie which is extremely wonderful. And this song is also nominated in Grammy awards, for the best soundtrack. I bet you watched already, and I couldn’t be wrong to entitle this new wave kind a film, is worth enough. So, what is your point of view as a becoming master film maker? :)
How to listen this song: in the middle of the night, while watching the whole world spinned their life over to sleep, sore by the cold weather and alone stare empty street in the corner and billboard above you tell something you don’t really get it about a man smoke a cigarette and they feel fit in! and this is the most amazing: Imagine your life was taken 9 minutes ago in a crash in that street. Hear it through your mp3 player loudly.
Suddenly indescribable

Jason mraz feat colbie caillat – lucky is the 4th song I put in the track.
Please don’t read it literally the text, that not the thing I want to say, but I indeed in love with you as a good friend. I wish that I’m lucky enough to have been where I have been and finally lucky to be coming home again…

Track 5, Save Ferris – Spam, it is suppose this song in this track, but the file record was not good so I changed with Creed (I remember u like this song also, so ignore description bout save ferris below)
:) Just want to remind you, I’m still in love with this 97-ska song. And maybe when you hear it over and over, you will understand how this song become addict to hear, love all song in their album “it means everyting”. Hope you like it too.

Matchbox 20 – Hand me down, in 6th
Love this sentence in this song: “You'll start to think you were born blind…” and “Do their best to change you, they still can't erase you…” another good motivator song.

Seventh song, The innocent Mission - When Mac Was Swimming
Just a funny, easy, simple song. Love it soo much. Hear it! Done??
……See?

8: Teitur - Poetry & Aeroplanes
Cute song. Different. But about the same love liking heartbreak alone, clear his head coz he tired traveled enough … Got it from another close friend of mine..

TRACK 9: Jens Lekman - A Postcard To Nina
Just like a postcard letter song. Taste it. Hell nice!

Bonus track: Just the two of us
You must be wondering, why I named it bonus track? well... actually I just want to give you 9 songs. In order that u will remember me with my special ”9”. But this song remind me always to you. Theres nothing special with this song.
Only it’s moment.

Well, that’s all… hope you like it.
Happy birthday one more time and happy married. Wish you all the best!

Truly friend of yours,
antik

lies

2008-06-25T17:39:00.016+07:00

The little cracks they escalated
And before you know it is too late
For making circles and telling lie

from the movie:once.

monday routine

2008-06-23T11:41:00.003+07:00

Dateng udah pasti kesiangan. Gak usah dibahas. Tiap hari juga.

Cuma ada kejadian td pagi yang pengen gw share.
Supir angkot yang td pagi gw naikin angkotnya (masih parah aja kalimat gw) marah2 ama gw. Gara2 gw cuma ngasih 1000 perak dari kosan gw ke kantor.
Da deket atuuh kang..

Ginih.. Kantor gw dijalan flores. Sebelum bensin naik, biasanya tuh gw naik angkot deket pusdai (ini mah info buat yang tau aja kayaknya. Hihihihi) dan gw turun di perempatan jalan aceh, deket graha manggala siliwangi.

Itu jalur yang paling deket banget ke kantor. Dan gw bayar seribu.

Skarang setelah bensin naik, gw tetep bayar seribu tapi gw turun di pertigaan Dpalm. Which is itu lebih jauh jarak yang harus gw tempuh ke kantor tapi jarak yang lebih masuk akal untuk harga seribu. Well… biasanya supir2 lainnya juga gak protes.

Bukannya gw juga dah berkorban dengan jalan lebih jauh?

Iya, gw tau..
semuanya serba mahal sekarang ini.. dan gw juga ngerti dia cuma kejar setoran, kebayang juga dia yang sehari2nya kepanasan kliling2 kota yang rutenya disitu2 aja.. ngedepin resiko ambeyen duduk dibelakang kemudi berjam jam, ditambah palakan liar di jalanan, ngasih setoran buat polisi… belum ditambah denger istri yang ngomel2 tiap pulang kerumah karena uang yang dia kasih gak pernah cukup untuk kebutuhan sehari2, anak2 yang minta uang SPP bulanan…. Hehehe…

Tapi mari atuh kita sama2 ngerti. Uang gw td pagi tinggal 1000. sumpah.
Dan dia gak mau tau.

Masa gw harus menangis meraung2 dan bilang klo uang gw cuma tinggal 1000 didompet, sambil dompetnya disodorin didepan mukanya gitu? Atau masa gw kasih hp gw buat barter ongkos angkot? Gak fair kaaaann? Jadi gw sekali lagi berusaha meyakinkan supir angkot itu dengan “kang, saya cuma punya seribu. Bener. Besok2 klo ketemu saya, tagih aja lagi deh.. nuhun nya kang… mariii… samlekumm”

hahaha. Teu ketang. Dia Cuma neriakin gw aja sambil gwnya juga ngeloyor pergi sambil pura2 gak denger. Hihihi. Semoga besok gak ketemu mamang itu lagi… hihihi….

Oya, kmaren ada yang ulang taun. Selamat ulang tahun -the most disgusting city in earth. Hehehe. Udah 481 tahun masih suka banjir aja lu.. grow up dong. Pak Fauzi juga udah pusing ngurusin lu kayaknya.

Ngomong2 masalah kendaraan juge nih ye mpok, (halaaah.. geuleuh banged logat betawi teh, jiga si dinul wae),

katanya, taun 2007 kmaren, mobil baru dijakarta bertambah 269 unit dan motor bertambah 1235 unit P.E.R.H.A.R.I. sedangkan pertambahan badan jalan Cuma 0.01 persen pertaun.

Omigosh. No wonder banget, macetnya gak beres2. dan dengan seenak udelnya bagi2 macet hari sabtu minggu di bogor ama dibandung. Hihihi…

Yasudahlah, have a nice Monday y’all…

senengnyaa..

2008-06-20T16:34:00.005+07:00

senengnya sekarang dah jumat lagi... gak kerasa banget...
Kalo minggu kmaren jam segini, masih diliputi ketidakjelasan (ketidak jelasaaaannn....baca: sambil bibir manyun2 ngejek: ala rida..) ttg ticket intimate concert with Glenn yang katanya bakal gratis dari salah satu temennya temen kantor gw..
yang pada akhirnya, gak dapet dong tiket gratisannya itu, tapi teuteup dateng juga walaupun dengan perasaan dongkol.
tambah2 lagi konsernya dipindah dari sabuga ke hanggar. (kok hanggar ya?!)
Tapi cukup menghibur kok liat uda Glenn yang kedua lesung pipitnya itu minta dicium.. (kenapa uda? Soalnya kok kostum panggung nya mirip uda uda yang ngelayanin di restoran padang yak.. hihihi..)

yup. Itu minggu lalu..

sekarang? Seneng udah jumat lagi..
trus seneng juga dapet se-album-eun more than you think you are nya Matchbox 20

oya, gw punya berita mengharu biru
(iya iyaaaaaa……)
Tau kampus gw kan? Ya, gak mungkin pada tau sih..
Dulu ajaaa.. detik2 terakhir dimana gw harus mengisi 1 kolom terakhir pilihan universitas negri, gw disaranin guru les bimbel gw ”masuk UPI aja”
(mungkin dia berfikiran waktu itu gw secara akademik gak kan mampu masuk kedokteran UI atau arsitek ITB. Padahal gw mampu banget.
...
Ok, enggak deng. Gw gak mampu.
Jadi biarlah anak ini masuk sekolah yang ~~gampang-gampang aja~~ secara pasinggrade-nyah lebih rendah dibandingkan dengan universitas2 lainnya)
Trus pastilah secara spontan gw langsung nanya ”UPI, apaan tuh?” well.. sapa juga yang tau. (kejamnya...)
Gini deh UPI tuh Universitas Pendidikan Indonesia, yang notabennya mencetak calon2 guru (yang selalu menjadi pahlawan tanpa tanda jasa).
Dulunya IKIP. Sekarang UPI. Universitas padahal IKIP.
2 hari yang lalu, gedung tempat gw blajar called pentagon, kebakaran.
Pertamanya gw kira gedung tuh amblas sampe tanah. Ternyata dari info yang gw dapet, Cuma gedung belakangnya aja yang gosong, nah parahnya, prodi gw tempat monsieur dan madame2 gw tercinta pada bertempat, (parah banget kalimat gw).. abis dilalap api. Dokumen2, komputer2, dan perintil2 lainnya yang sangat penting..yang selamat cuma dokumen2 yang ada diruangannya ~~musyu udang~~ monsieur Udin aja.. haduuuu....
hiks.. Walau emang gedung bobrok itu udah seharusnya dihancurkan tapi kok ya, kebakaran... mbok ya, di rubuhin aja, dan dibangun yang baru.. (kok kesannya jadi sama aja ya) hehehe..
yaudah deh, semoga kelak bagunan yang bakal dibangun lagi (atau atleast direkonstruksi ulang, halah..) gak kayak pentagon dulu itu dengan papan tulis kapur nya yang udah 'enggak' banged dijaman sekarang ini.. apalagi dengan status BUMN-nya UPI itu.. (walaupun mrk2 mahasiswa yang baru gak akan punya kenangan2 bodor nan indah kayak yang gw punya..)

yaudah ah. Si rida.nGL alias nu gelo udah ambeg2an ngajak pulang. Dan gw juga dah ga sabar liat episode terakhirnya Gossip girl season one. Huhuy!!
Bye all…

Lost

2008-06-16T17:43:00.015+07:00

I woke up this morning.. then I feel lost.

Brainless. Unoccupied.

I feel pushed by my own selfhelp suggestions.

With a fast script of self defense, I thought I created the wall between lust and love.
(Ew! no.. im still virgin if that what u’ve thinkin..) -> yeah.. sure..

I don’t have the lawful escape.

I should be in hell using this dilapidated heart.

And I should stop. Later.

Pictures talk. 25 – 31 May 2008

2008-06-09T16:47:00.014+07:00

I do love this one. Just simple siluette of Mrs. Tanja Klip Martin.

She is the new Head Commissioner of WMD, (Waterleiding Maatschappij Drenthe), one of our shareholders.And also as a Lid College Gedeputeerde Staten – Provincie Drenthe, Holland as written in her namecard. :)

It was taken in one of beach side-restaurant in Balikpapan named Jack’s Place.

Nice atmosphere, fabulous western, Mexican food; and its ~~corona~~ hot cappuccino was fantastic!

This is taken in small boat when we were on our way to Bunaken National Marine Park, the contrast of the boat’s colors and the clouds above attracted me most.

And of course of the islands. The Bunaken National Marine Park was formally established in 1991 and is among the first of Indonesia's growing system of marine parks. The remaining 3% of the park is terrestrial, including the five islands of Bunaken, Manado Tua, Mantehage, Nain and Siladen.

When we walked down stairs to enter (the half) submarine to find and to see treasure trove of beautiful corals and fishes.

The majesty Governor of Drenthe Province, Mr. Ter Beek tried to light his cigarette and the son of the fisherman who joint with us in a boat showed him a way to light it easily.

“Inside your shirt” he said.

And Mr. Ter Beek tried spontaneously in the little brave kid’s shirt. We laugh at the first time. Hahaha. Love this picture.

This is when we visited Tomohon, we are in the amphitheater sited at Woloan village. The building is half-rounded with a stage on the center and can cover about three thousands people.

Also in the same location, there are many waruga or sarcophagi.

Waruga is the traditional cemetery of Minahasan. When a person dies, then the corpse will be seated on a chair and tied there until it is stiff. After that, the corpse is untied, then it is brought to circle the house three times as a symbol that the person is no longer among his/her family, but in another world. The corpse then put into waruga with a plate under it, and all his/her beloved things (such as: blade, glass, bracelet, necklace, beads, pendant, etc) are also put inside waruga. Fiiuuhh…

In Fatahillah Museum, old Batavia, Jakarta.

So, which one do you like most? :)

If I have a daughter, then maybe I’ll name her, Princess.

2008-05-22T17:35:00.006+07:00

Well, this is about choices.
It’s so obvious that I’m not genius. That wasn’t my choice.

Never been on a 1st place on everything. Never get award for something great.
And try multiplication on me. I ever said 56 for 9 x 6.
Hmmffh…

If I have a choice, I prefer be genius.

And I don’t have that model-kindda-look.

They never gonna catch a good pictures, if they not taken my-only-upper-angle coz im soo not cameragenic even less camera-cellphone-genic.

Even maybe they will get sick to see me as a cover model of chic young woman magazine.

Haha. And for now, don’t ever you dare to make fun of my belly since I couldn’t control my appetite. Ha!

I choose eat a lot, but being ‘not even close’ to Sandra bullock, that’s not my choice.

If I have a choice I prefer beautiful.

But I’m super allright.

There are a lot of things I shouldn’t compare, shouldn’t give value, coz I choose different.

sthing that will make me special, or just fell different in a good ways.

Well, hear it: I taste ART. Define, art !

Feel free to comment when you saw an abstract pictures in art gallery by : “wooow, how come the painter sketch things like sh*t? (sh*t is my art- preferences word to describe ~~shit~~things truly wonderful)

When you couldn’t close your eyes for something’s amazing like scenery in Sorong – Papua

To be another person you created, named it, and lived in.

To be called “TARI” although my name is “antik”.

Art refers to a diverse range of human activities and artifacts, and may be used to cover all or any of the arts, including music, literature and other forms. It is most often used to refer specifically to the visual arts, including media such as painting, sculpture, and printmaking. However it can also be applied to forms of art that stimulate the other senses, such as music, an auditory art. (source)

Art is stare stars

Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep.Scott Adams

Art is sthing that giving a forename “princess” to my daughter, so that when she goes into kindergarten school by age 4, and the teacher ask her “what is ur name? she would introduce her self as “ncess”… hahahahaha…

Updating me

2008-04-25T17:54:00.006+07:00

Where have I been lately?

Do you think my too-ordinary tasks and duties keeping me all days behind this computer monitor and can’t blog post?

Frankly, I never had that kinda deadline or super rush working hours actually,
but… I’m just simply not in my creative time to post a thing lately.

Is it makes sense, or not? Never mind. So now, I’m creative?

Or maybeee, I gave a lot of my attention to the scandalous life of mine.

Huahaha.

Yes, babe, I’m officially became a huge fan of xoxo, gossip girl.

If you are female and breathe, u do have to watch this movie-I convinced you.
Blair is so scandal with her fox-like face, so brilliantly make me think how precious my life just now…

but look, is she look like our actrees in Indonesia, who want to learn bahasa in Australia?

Hahahahaha.

Feel it, the Plot summary,

The Gossip Girl series revolves around a group of teenagers, several of whom live on the Upper East Side of Manhattan in New York City. They gossip, do drugs and drink, but they also deal with sex and relationship problems. They attend elite private single-sex schools, where their lives are watched by the unseen title character who writes a blog about them.

Aand, speaking of love, I’ve less attracted to fedi nuril. (He’s far more attractive before he became fahri in AAC) I love him only in garasi or janji joni.
But it’s your choice Fed, and ~~bad~~ good luck, congrats for your new relationship. But ~~cinta lokasi~~ fall in love in location seldom ended well. Ha!

Since I told you in my previous-two-month-ago post , that I broke my cellphone,

I feel that I have to announce this that I have already NEW CELLPHONE!!!

You are above reproach

2008-03-24T17:18:00.010+07:00

I love the way you look glance at me,

- while trying hard not to make it hard and complicated.

Absolutely perfect

I love your humble, classically word you’ve said

under that vague gleam of light in the table 15.

You teach all the determinant things worked in nature...

You always choose priorities extremely wisely…

for those things that really matter in life.

You’ve become my closest pair whom I can’t easily to avoid.

I’ll pray for you.

You will get the euphoria of your tremendously successful.

I feel it. I feel you.

Bend all of your obstacles.

And you may enjoy each and every single day in comfort.

standing on our feet

2008-02-06T20:40:00.003+07:00

I have a bad luck in a last few days, but I don’t want to make it as a core point of my story today.
I worked hard on controlling my sarcastically words at that time being and I try to avoiding things or conversation that make situation even worse.

Okay, I found that fly is not my right.

Aaand, back to daily routines and the daily feelings,
Dah lama juga gak posting. Klo dipaksain nulis kmaren2, pasti topiknya masih tentang kesedihan gak berujung ituh.. Including detail story bout my cell phone yang kecebur parfum yang tumpah (bukan eau de toilette atau eau de parfum, man, that was parfum) yang baru gw beli sehari sebelumya – sampe isinya kosong, song song. Hp gw rusak, sak, suck. Babon. (Ok, controlling my sarcastically words?) Termasuk failed in interview. Gosh. (Temen gw sampe nanya : “knp gagal? Lu ee dicelana kali pas di interviewed?) -- yang kadang2 masih menghantui gw dimimpi.. disamping gw gak jago nulis dan sangat tergantung mood, jadilah baru sekarang nulis lagi..

8 pm. Gw masih dikantor. Denger Overjoyed- nya Stevy wonder malem2 gini jadi pengen nyanyi keras2.. (huh?) enak bgt tuh lagu. Rada males pulang. (sambil nunggu abang juga dari Jkt). Klo dikosan garing. Sendirian. Tapi sebenernya pengen juga nonton Avatar yang DVDnya dah gw pinjem ituh. Sampe Book 3. Tapi baru sampe chapter 4 adanya. Tapi ternyata masih pengen blogwalk.. nemu ini, seru juga nemu sisi personalnya artis. ;)

(Dian kenal Fedi gak yah?) *centil*

Pengen ke bogor sih sebenernya, tanggal 10 Feb ini adik bungsu gw ultah. Dia minta kado sederhana, Cuma: Tas sekolah, ama pinsil mekanik.

Pinsil mekanik, guyss!!!

Sedangkan banyak diluar sana a girl in her age, askin for a party!!!!! Hiks hiks. Jadi super sedih. Dari dulu emang kita gak pernah hidup mewah. Bukan gak boleh. Tapi gak bisa. Karena memang gak ada. Jadilah harapan2 kita tentang hal “besar” pun kadang kadang jadi gak ada sama sekali. Mimpi pun kadang didapet hanya karena keberuntungan dan usaha sangat keraaaaas. Jadi inget pertama kali punya Hp (yang rusak, mentioned above), HP Kamera, yang bisa muter (muteeeer...) Mp3 player, bisa browsing, and finally bisa yahoo messenger-an di HP terkabul !! that day, gak sampe setengah hari, battery gw langsung abis gara2 kesenengan ngulik2 HP baru itu yang gw tunggu2 dari jaman batu. Keajaiban beli Hp itu gw dapet, karena Bokap gw dapet warisan keluarga (yang tiba2 ludes dalam beberapa bulan kemudian). Gini mangkanya gw sangat menyangkan rusaknya HP gw ituh. Gw gak bisa beli yang setara. Hhh… Parah yah. Segitunya. Well, ive livin my life like this for years. I mean yearsss… Bukan salah siapa2. dan gw juga gak mau nyalahin siapa2. Jalannya aja gini.. *sok wise* anyway, Gw selalu sayang dan berharap yang terbaik untuk Tita. My lil sist. Luv u sist.

Udah ah.

“Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?”
Follow Through -Gavin DeGraw

Renungan tahun 2008

2008-01-17T18:13:00.003+07:00

Gw baru aja ngerasa jadi orang yang kurang merenung.. hsi hsi..

Dikasih selembar tulisan yang isinya rada bikin gw mikir,

Ada beberapa kalimat yang bagus klo menurut gw :

”Jujur. sikap dasar yang selalu selaras dengan hati nurani.

Ini memang agak sulit tapi marilah kita belajar jujur dengan memulai:

1. tidak membicarakan hal yang tidak jelas, atau menggunjing hal negatif.

2. tidak mencari kekurangan/ketidak sempurnaan orang lain.

3. tidak berlaku curang atau juga menghindari perilaku yang bisa mengundang orang lain berfikir bahwa kita curang.

4. tidak terlalu perduli menanggapi kalau ada tuduhan tuduhan yang tidak tepat.

5. dll...

Dan ini yang paling ngena:

”Tidak perlu ngotot akan makna hak, karena sesuatu yang hak akan sampai ke alamat yang tepat.”

.....

Berangkat dari situ.. (Walah, berangkat dr situ) gw coba untuk gak ngotot dengan apa yang bukan hak gw.

InsyaAllah, kalau terbang bukan hak gw.

Gw coba ikhlas.

Ps : Thanks Pak Didi yang dah kasih bahan renungan dan semangat.

jumat kejepit

2007-12-21T10:40:00.000+07:00

dan gw masuk kantor. ~~sigh, sialan gw gak dapet tambahan cuti lagi~~... Hehehehe.

sepi gini..

idul adha gw yang pertama kalinya gw lewatin gak sama keluarga gw..

haduhhh sepiiiiii...

kangen ade2 guaaaaa....

remaining stories

2007-12-17T10:36:00.001+07:00

Gara2 baru sempet posting lagi, jadinya aja basi beneran degh ceritanya... hehehe...

but please just let me list things that happened during that mission and lets see how come the sentence "let just take things come to us" become magic...

Arrival Balikpapan, 23 Nov

Perjalanan dr airport ke Samboja Lodge tempat gw menginap selama diBalikpapan memakan waktu hampir 45 menit.

Samboja Lodge terletak ditengah-tengah hutan belantara ma men…

ditempat yang katanya dulunya hampir tiap tahun terjadi kebakaran hutan, akhirnya tanah itu dibeli (atau dikembangkan ya? Hihi) ama investor asing dari Belanda yang bernama Willie Smith dijadikan lah tempat humanize para orang utan yang (katanya lagi) udah ampir musnah.

logo BOS

Jadi, orang utan yang dipelihara para manusia, disita dan dilatih untuk kembali menjadi liar ditempat itu..

terlihat ada cage (sebenernya ada beberapa cage) digambar dibawah ini..

Pak Indra, legal consultant, INOWA. Sambodja

Cage itu tempat para orang utan dilatih per step, dari mulai diajarkan memanjat pohon sampai mencari makanan sendiri dihutan..

Lodge 3 atau 4 tingkat itu terbuat dari kayu2 dan bambu2 yang terkesan sangat natural bgt! dan untuk naik kelantai paling atas, ya kita harus pakai tangga.Untung kamar gw dilantai satu selantai ama “lobby”nya..

Waktu gw istirahat sebentar di resto yang lebih pas disebut tempat makan aja. Hehe, but nice kok…

gw mikir wah gw free nih karena didalam jadwal yang gw pegang, baru ada dinner ama pejabat balikpapan jam 7 malem.. bisa istirahat deh..

baru mikir gitu, para bule turun dari kamarnya dan langsung menuju mobil box untuk keliling lapangan melihat cara kerja pemeliharaan orang utan itu, gosh, pas gw liat Mrs. Ter Beek(yang merupakan tugas gw untuk menemani beliau dalam setiap kegiatan) ikut dalam rombongan masuk kedalam mobil itu, karena buru2 gw gak sempet balik ke kamar untuk ganti high heels gw jadi sandal jepit.

Sudah dapat dipastikan field trip ini bikin gw pengen teriaaaak, karena harus cape2 jinjit turun naek keatas mobil box dan turun menginjak tanah tempat high heels gw pasti ngejeblos sekitar 2 cm tiap gw ngelangkah! Dan super banyak nyamuuuuk, anjrith.. but it was also super beautiful.

Arrival Manado, 24 Nov

Sampai malem minggu dikota manado.

Ternyata PT. TID dan PT.Air Manado sudah menyiapkan sambutan diairport, penyematan kalung bunga, tanda mata sampai penyiapan foreider untuk mengawal aku (well, mengawal rombongan Pak Gubernur) sampai ke Ritzy hotel.

Lumayan melancarkan perjalanan yang agak padat pada malam minggu tersebut.

There was an opening ceremony of PT. TID’s office, visiting of Paal Dua rehabilitation in treatment plant and rest of building site of PT. Air Manado, visiting Bunaken to open the water facilities on the island together with the Walikota MAnado, Diner with the Governor of North Sulawesi, etc…

Days seems fine in Manado, until I realized there was a souvenir which had a very simple package from Balikapan,

I thought well, this is can not be fragile, because it was so lack packaged.
And the day when we have to go to Makasar, Mr. Ter beek asked me to repack it.

That was a rush time cause at the same time I have to take a data in TID’s office, turunin koper2 mereka dalam 1 mobil dan pergi duluan ke bandara in order not to make them wait to long in the airport, so I have to check-in for them earlier.

And when I go to the post office, I saw they opened the package,

OH MY GOD.

Souvenir yang isinya replica of motorcycle made by wood itu udah patah2 dimana-mana dooong! Gossssh, nooo!!!

Akhirnya dengan tenaga super gw minta semua pegawai yang pada ngepak in barang dikantor post tersebut ngumpul semua, untuk bantuin masalah gw itu.

Baut penahan ban motor tersebut patah jadi mau gak mau harus dibor, supaya bisa masukin kayu penahannya, mereka gw suruh lari cari lem kuat, beli dus penahan tahan goncangan.

Dan mereka berdelapanan ngerjain 1 barang itu aja, managernya datang dengan bingung, kenapa pegawainya gak ada yang stand by di tempat packing barang post, gw langsung menjelaskan dengan diselingi marah2 tu orang.

Well, f**k you.

Mendekati jam dimana gw harus pergi ke airport, mereka masih juga berusaha untuk masukin tu barang kedalam kiardus besar. Bla bla blaaa……. Beres! Thanks GOD.

Arrival Makasar, 28 Nov

Sampai Makasar pengeeen banget istirahat,

setelah menghadapi permasalahan tempat menginap (ampir disemua hotel, gosh!), such as yang harusnya dapet dipresident suite malah dapet junior suite, low internet connection, dizzing sound, street noisy sound, air conditioner, shower… gw belum juga dapet waktu untuk istiraht, harus bantuin Pak Indra bikin bikin surat, translate LoI, dll…

Malamnyaaaa….akhirnya tibalah pada diner yang sangat kacau. Undangan hanya ditujukan kepada para pejabat kota makasar, Actually it was only for 10 people of private diner, and it came for about 50 people.

Keesokan harinya di airport. Gw duluan “giring” para bule ke executive lounge, setelah itu gw kembali ke tempat cek-in untuk nunggu Pak Indra dan Pak Agus(Presdir PT. TID) pembawa 12 koper besar2.

Ternyata mereka udah cek-in in koper.

Pas gw Tanya, semuanya 12 koper kan? Kata mereka ”enggak.. sebelas..”

“HAAAAHHHH??? HILANG 1 KOPERRRR!!

Gw ama Pak Indra,Pak Agus sampe heboh periksa ke bagasi belakang airport untuk nyelidiki koper siapa yang gak masuk.

Kalo sampe koper Pak GUb, wadoh. Langsung dikirim kali gw ke Bandung detik itu juga.
Ternyata kopernya Pak Agus.

Intinya God d**m porter! Kata petugas disitu emang banyak porter nakal di bandara itu. Boarding time. We lost it.

Nice city…

Arrival Ambon, 29 Nov

Di Ambon, langsung anter Pak Agus ke Mall. Belanja baju dan perlengkapan lainnya yang ikut hilang sama kopernya...

The second day, we go to Seri Village, opening ceremony Water cup & Bottling Factory...

Arrival Jakarta, 1 Des

Akhirnyaaaaa……….

see?? sebenernya masih banyak lagi yang bikin situasi rush itu happened and happened again, there is no way giving in detail here..hehehe..

The point is, every time I’ve got problems and when it almost mad me insane,

well...I just have to remember the words "let just take things come to us”...

Thanks Mr.& Mrs.Ter Beek,... I never had a beautiful journey like this before.

"Lets just take things come to us.."

2007-12-07T17:30:00.000+07:00

Wah, gak kerasa udah 1 minggu lewat dari perjalanan gw kmarin.. basi juga gpp deh ya, bagi2 pengalaman.. hehehe...

First, let me tell u why I choose those words for the title, coz they are the extremely magic words for me during my business trip 1 week ago...

Spent 10 days with the greatest people gave me greatest stories! And those magic words have been pronounced by one of those great people, Mr. Aurelus Louis ter Beek (The governor of Drenthe province in Holland, he used to be a Minister of Defense in Holland before he appointed by the Excellency Queen to become a Governor) in our first long conversation we had each other!

This is my first trip, first field visit, and first time to accompany important persons during their mission in Indonesia. For the first day we spent a night in Sultan (Hilton) Hotel, they had a meeting with Dutch Ambassador, and at night we went to Pak Mohammad Jusuf's house (former Indonesian Ambassador for Netherland) for dinner. This day seems ok.

The journeys begin in the second day. We went to Balikpapan.

In the airport, it was to obvious (maybe) that I was so nervous, and then Mr. Ter Beek looked at us (me and Pak Indra, representative from Inowa Bandung) and say... "I know this is your first time, we never know what will happen tomorrow, but let me tell you s'thing, lets just take things come to us..."

and theeeeenn,..........

Duuhh, baru mau mulai tapi travel dah jemput. Terusin nanti yaa… im goin home to Bogorrrrr!!

To be continued…

-Manado-

Long distance call

2007-11-21T13:52:00.001+07:00

"I'm far gone... but your long distance call And your capital letters keep me asking for more.. its never been like that.. la la la "

from Phoenix..

sok sok-an long distance padahal cuma Jakarta - Bandung.. hehehehe

anywaaaay, happy anniversary 8th year ya Bang..

too many wish to be mention

2007-11-06T15:54:00.000+07:00

I wanna be a hacker...

I wanna involve in the dramatic situation like an actress,

I wanna be a mafia…

I wanna be a pilot just because I really want to fly;

maybe I have to be a bird... or a butterfly...

I love to sing, I wanna be a singer.

I love to write I wanna be author…

I wanna be a person behind something...

I wanna feel and hear music till the deepest parts of my ear and my heart...

I wanna built something made by sands…

I wanna create something, I wanna be a pianist..a guitarist…

I wanna help people, I wanna be a docter..

I wanna know anything bout people, I wanna be mentalist… psychotherapist…

I wanna be a number 1 ..
or I’ll choose 9 if I ever cant reach 1 …

I wanna be a star…

I wanna be a good daughter...

Sometimes I feel like I wanna be a tree in a hill,

to watch and to be standing still…

And I wanna love my life…

Maaf lahir batin...

2007-10-19T14:52:00.000+07:00

Selamat lebaran 1 syawal 1428 H !! maaf lahir batin ya...
semoga semuanya dikembalikan fitri,
sefitri rambut gw yang sudah kembali dicat hitam
seperti terpampang difoto..
(hairdryer gw memperjelas klo it was taken after bath)
hahaha..

Anywaaay, i've changed my template. bosan. lagian seirama banged kan
ama nuansa idul fitri yang kembali suci, kembali putih... so i chosed white.
dan dari pertama gw juga gak mau ama warna yang ribet2 kok..
(aneh tepi tetep, warna fav gw tetep merah)
dan tampilannya memang kurang ok yah,
shoutout-boxnya masih nuansa template gw
yang hitam, votenya juga...
ntarlah pelan2 di benerin (klo gak males)..

Hari kedua masuk kerja nih, suasananya masih males2an..
masih ngantuk pula bangun pagi! apalagi kemarin, kantor dibawah cuma ada 6 orang,
yang lain masih cuti.. eh, dah gw bilang blom yah
(kayaknya belum) gw dapet cuti tambahan 3 hari..
what a nice bos.. hahaha...

Wah udah hampir jam 5 lagi... pulang yaa...

padahal baru 3 hari

2007-10-03T14:31:00.001+07:00

aggrrh, abaaaaaaang...
kamu jangan aneh2 dijakarta yaaaa...
klo nakal aku pegang andeng2nya siah...

Rain and song

2007-09-24T15:26:00.001+07:00

Finally it's rain in this city.. sooooo damn beautiful! really!!
rain always remind me of good times....
....

....

we used to sit in that car and enjoying tour a round
the city without any destination.
at the sight of those simplicities of its beauty when it was rain,
n'importe quelle l'entretien entre nous...
and the most present in my mind was the song, it was lighthouse family..
their second album, postcard from heaven with "high", "lost in space"
also whatever gets you through the day, 3rd album with
"u always want what u haven't got"
and "free" of course... *hmm...
...

....

this afternoon, as good as a good news that i just received...
(hope this is the best for you, for us with that kind of distance to have.. congrats, bang!)
it was rain outside...
my space is right in the corner and surrounded by big windows in glass so,
it was cleared enough to watch those miracles... the sound...
and the song was "easier to lie" by Aqualung...
...
...
..
thanks GOD for giving me this world...

puasa hari ke sembilan

2007-09-20T14:07:00.001+07:00

Udah sembilan hari puasa nih, gak kerasa ya (kerasa bgt padahal).. um masih seperti hari hari kerja biasa..
Ngelewatin siang hari dengan tugas2 kantor.. kmaren lebih lucu lagi, gw ngetik pake mesin tik! huahahaha.. berasa di kelurahan! pake bunyi "ting" lagi pas dah nyampe pinggirnya.. hihihi...
Oya, jatah cuti gw dah tinggal 2 hari! gimana melewatkan hari lebaran yang menyenangkan klo tanggal 15nyah (senin) harus dah dikantor lagi!!! tapi tenang deng, jurus rayu 1000 cara,
akan gw keluarkan untuk dapetin cuti tambahan... huahahahahahahaha.....
Eheh, masa Singapore bakal punya jaringan internet nirkabel yang menjangkau seluruh kota
alias wirelesstown! ngutip dari majalah "Konsultan" yang gw baca nih yah:"Pemerintah Singapura akan menyediakan akses nirkabel internet gratis dibanyak tempat umum di Singapura. Layanan baru yang dinamakan Wireless@SG ini akan menggunakan teknologi dengan koneksi broadband. Layanan ini bisa kita nikmati mulai Januari 2008" kata perdana menteri Lee Hsien Loong.. Kabarnya lagi Thailand jugamau gitu!!! (mau gitu kumaha..) tapi bedanya katanya Thailand pake koneksi akses kabel bawah
tanah. Cihuy! Indonesia kapan yah?
Trus trus, hari ini berasa lambat banget ih, baru jam 3 coba!perasaan hari ini dah ngelakuin berbagai macam hal.. review ah, dari pada boring gini..pagi, 9am, dateng dateng dah sibuk
teriak teriak jualan kue bikinan baba, sebangsa nastar dan castengles (gimana ya tulisannya?) akhirnya berhasil maksa beberapa orang... ada juga yang mau beli... hihihi... sibuk ngurus
email email;surat; duh dibahas juga boring gini.. tapi asiknya kantor gw, nge-blog juga dibayar! :)
pengen sop kaki bang kumis ih..
Bisous,...

Yoga, puasa dan gempa...

2007-09-13T12:51:00.000+07:00

Sebelumnya, met puasa yaaa... gak kerasa ih bentar lagi lebaran (hihihi, padahal baru hari pertama puasa gini dah bilang sebentar lagi lebaran..) dulu sih lebaran tuh artinya kaya!
sekarang diperkirakan sebaliknya..*hiks mode on*
Kmarin pulang kantor nyempet-nyempetin yoga dulu sebelum puasa, pemanasan berlangsung lancar...pas adegan (cieee, adegaaaaan) istirahat terlentang setelah gerakan belalang (?) {sumpah gerakan belalang, hihihi) diiringi lagu yang mendayu2 gitu, sambil merem, instrukturnya bilang, "tenangkan batin, lepaskan semua beban...nikmati kesunyian... bla..bla..." dan ada kalimat yang ngena bgt, dia bilang "sekarang waktunya anda merendahkan hati anda serendah rendahnya...." zut! gw langsung ngrasa jadi orang yang paling tinggi hati sejagad raya, gw istigfar sambil tarik nafas daleeem,gw mohon ama Allah SWT agar menjauhkan gw dari segala bentuk konsekuensiku atas apa yang gw lakuin selama didunia...dari mulai berprasangka buruk aja dulu, sampe tinggi hati dan kecongkakkan gw menghadapi dunia..... hhhh....
Tadi pagi, siap dengan semangad baru, tapi pas baca berita,
Astagfirullah....Tuhan masih sayang ma kita yah?gempa teyyuuuss...

FUGU... huhuhuhu

2007-09-11T14:55:00.000+07:00

Sengaja ngejar ke lapangan penuh debu demi liat FUGU, weitz, lagunya enakeun juga, personilnya ramah2.. sempet ngejelasin ternyata mereka udah 10 hari di Ina, ke Surabaya, Jogya, Jakarta trus akhirnya Bandung sbg bintang tamu acara indie-famous sponsor rokok.. he9..
band yg se-angkatan ama tahiti 80 (tahiti katreu-veng) ini lumayan
bikin ngangguk2 dikit, dan manjain kuping gw.. mereka juga sering manggung bareng stereolab
yang udah gak asing lagi di denger...
Dah kebayang kan alirannya? yippie..
oliver-the guitarist nya ramah bgt lagi.. !!pas dia bilang
"tu parles bien fr, et tu es belle.. pourqoui je n'aime pas Indonesie?"
hahahahaha..

I don’t need a boundary

2007-08-23T09:35:00.001+07:00

Gw pengen ngelakuin apa aja% jangan larang larang gw untuk marah sedih seneng loncat loncat guling guling, jatoh, kesel, ge-er, bahagia bahkan untuk bau sekalipun.
no rules/
Gw mau berkata kasar, uncensored, berbuat hal yang paling konyol,
gw mau mimpi untuk ketemu gaek disurga trus bangun lagi,
gw mau ketemu orang yang pernah mati suri}
gw mau semua nyamuk dikamar mati waktu mereka ngeliat gw tanpa disemprot
# dan oya, gw mau nulis.
Gw pengen bebas tulis apa saja\
Mau setelah ini diakhiri dengan tanda titik dua atau petik gw gak peduli;
Mau orang gak ngerti apa yang gw tulis, gw jg gak peduli+
Gw mau tulis semua yang yang gak mengikuti norma2 penulisan sebuah bahasa yang baik dan benar.
Fuck EYD.
Gw mau nulis tulisan yang gak berhubungan satu sama lainnya, biarin.
Gw mau cerita apapun yang saat itu terlintas dalam otak gua ;
@^&(0 yah, apapun.
J’avais une foule de questions à poser, mais j’étais trop en colère pour l’écrire!
Gw gak mau ngerangkai2 kalimat dan gw lagi gak mau denger apa yang diomongin orang-orang[
ok mulai lagi-\
Gw kesel ama mas mas seles kartu kredit yang ada
di pintu keluar hypermart BIP dengan senyumnya yang sok manis nawarin
(dan MAksa) gw untuk applied. Dia ngalangin gw jalan keluar!
Dia bener2 berenti PERSIS didepan muka gw!
Mungkin dia mantan preman yang dulunya suka nyegat orang2 digang
nodong pisau dan minta duit~ Yeah, fuck you.
Karpet gw masih aja bau bekas minuman yang pernah tumpah dulu$ padahal kan dah gw jemur>
gw pengen benci duit dan pengen gak ngebutuhinnya.
Je n’étais pas en voyage !.
Gw lumayan bangga waktu akbar ama iin inspired of my
French resume for their skripshits.
Tapi gw masih feel guilty what I’ve done to akbar.
Kesannya gw gak bisa diandelin banget to keep “it”.=( ~
tapi semoga kalian yang mau pada sidang tanggal 30, berhasil(.
kenapa harus panic at the disco sih nama bandnya lagian?
Gw dah minta ke dua orang, untuk hadiah ulang tahun gw tahun depan :CD Safe ferris,
their first album.
Masih jamannya ska saat itu.
Tapi gw cuma suka itu.
Gw gak pinter tapi gw gak bego^
gw bisa maen gitar tapi gw gak tau harus nyanyiin apa klo gw dijauhin dari chord2nya di buku musik.. suara gw gak FALS
“I forget what I am.. wonder will say”-Embrace. Lalalalalalala…
Gw pengen makan mie instant banyak dan pedas, tapi mereka suka buat magh} .
bart simpson the movie.
Kerjaan kantor yang belom beres2 juga, yang gak pengen gw inget inget.
Goshbump.
I’m not moving.
Gemukan sekarang gw, katanya.
Aneh. « kamu Kenapa sih g ngerti » he said. And –the other He said « u didn’t bother me at all; I wish I was there, if only I have a courage” and the other farawayandalmostnot recognize of He, said “miss you” otherwise “I’ll hate you”.
Ternyata masih jam 9pm.
+nice time!
Smoke#
bleeding.
Gossiping apa aja ama manis manja, bumi gonjangganjing
^
bebek goreng di blakang boromeus enak bgt loh, tiap kali kesana pasti semua orang berfikiran “knp sih gak diluasin aja nih tenda, bikin restorant dengan bangunan yang guedeeee napa, jadinya kan gw gak perlu pasang tamp-ang jutek ama orang2 yang dah beres makan dan masih sangat eneg karena makanannya blom turun banget, tapi mereka blom ninggalin bangkunya juga dari tadi” atau “gila, kok dia duluan yang dikasih, gw yang dari 2 jam lalu ngantri aja blom kebagian” GAK SEGITUNYA SIH.
– lui, ola la.. Un garçon que j’adore depuis longtemps ! S’il m’aime, est-ce que je peux annuler le mariage?
Gw dah capek ah.
I wanna try to sleep in my king of convenience-bed. Well, this is fun, you should try it. I’ll do it again later `@#9* my no boundary-should-write-anything-you-like-or-dislike-COLORFUL- game!!!

Extraordinary feelings

2007-08-18T23:43:00.001+07:00

Like the other extraordinary feelings 4 having the first things in first day..

NERVOUS,
My first day in bandung after more than one week in bogor and jakarta well,at the hospital,actually.
Not really get used to this keyboard anymore, and a litte bit nervous bout monday. I hate monday,still.
More than ever i guess, i dont even know d latest issues in d office.. Like, for whom n what kind of dispositions my boss has made, how does it look like: name card that i ordered 2 weeks ago 4 him? Another things like, family gathering! which is almost come in a weeks 2 go (sadly, i dont think i can join the fun..Hiks).. Those reminder 4 proposals that hasnt been sent yet, the bulletin that should have been finished in july coz it should launch 4 august, et cetera.. A lot.

WORRIED,
Leaving him, with the uncertaintly schedule of medical treatment 4 his cancer in colon, i dunno, they called it laparatomy or s'thing, and um.. We'll see.. Hopefully his heart disease wont bother all its process, like before..

SECURE,
it sounds like im pushed into the edge, but its so heartwarming 4having all my best friends stay near..

7.15 pm : me, otw to bgr

2007-08-09T19:37:00.001+07:00

Hujan. Well,great.. Sndrian dibis kayak gini pasti maksa orang buat ngelamun banyak, no no wrong, banyak ngelamun.. Biasanya kegiatan gw dibis cuma tidur.. Dan tiba2 sampailah dibgr.. Tp skrg gw ga bisa tidur, bangku dpn gw yg isinya bapak2 pake kupluk kuning (sumpah kuning!) nurunin bangkunya sangat condong kebelakang, which is mean that i dont have more places left untuk ganti2 posisi kaki..Tp gw ga mau pindah ke bangku kosong sblh gw,krna gw mau liat pemandangan diluar jendela..Walau saking dktnya tu kpala bpk2 ama hidung gw,semilir2 gitu gw cium bau ketombe..Hehe gak segitunya sih.. And theeen, pegel nengok kekanan keluar jendela, lewat padalarang, ciranjang..Cianjur..Cipanas.. Akhirnya gw ambil hp gw yg dari tadi cuma gw pake denger mp3.. Gw mulai nulis blog gw ini, dan sprti yg gw tulis diatas tadi, hujan.. Lengkaplah suasana dukung gw untuk galau! All those -no answers- questions like, why should my father? Dan knp harus ada penyakit kangker?...And so on.. And so on.. Finally, udah nympe puncak nih.. Its soo fucking fogging!..n my bus runs like 40km/h... Soo perfect GOD.....

stronger than my father

2007-08-07T17:19:00.001+07:00

It’s been a time since my last post, but hell yes,

I was sooo... Lets say, um...hectic.

Pampam, one of my best-loved person in d world, is getting sick and has to rest at d hospital, maybe for more than a week, I guess... Due to all unclear information from the doctor, I still can not believe that they don’t even know exactly my pampam's suffered from!

too pathetic, jam 6 kurang, saat yang lain dah ngabsen pulang dr tadi sore, aku masih didepan komputer, nungguin e-mail yang harus SAAT ini juga di fax-in ke jakarta. dan reply satu e-mail ke salah satu commisaris dibelanda, dan ternyata e-mail ini masih harus direvisi dulu karena datanya belum lengkap, and they must have been sent in this evening!

what dha? gak tau apa klo gw lagi not in my mood? gak tau apa klo dari tadi gw mikirin city scan, sesek nafas, jantungnya yang lagi bermasalah, badan dinginnya...

can NOT consentrate on doing things..
but i have to be stronger than my father...

my sistas

2007-07-30T10:40:00.002+07:00

Sangat sayang kaliaan...

Stomatis Aphtosa Rekuren

2007-07-27T15:20:00.003+07:00

Biasanya dipanggil, sariawan.
Istilah kedokteran giginya sih Stomatis Aphtosa Rekuren (SAR)..
kalo menurut gw namanya, seriawANjrit....
hhh...

khayal

2007-07-26T15:40:00.002+07:00

pintu terbuka selalu membuatku gerah ingin menutupnya.

karena aku takut kawanan perampok mencuri segalanya.

aku kemudian berlari ke arah pintu itu.

beberapa jengkal dari pintu itu,

memandang keluar,

aku melihat garis..

garis-garis itu begitu tipis.

hanya dapat dipandang jika memincingkan mata.

tapi aku tak keberatan hanya untuk
sekedar memincingkan mata

dan terlihatlah dengan jelas.

bahwa ternyata itu bukanlah hanya garis-garis.

hanya surga...

aku palingkan mukaku,

dibelakangku gelap.

mungkin sudah malam..

saatnya aku berhenti menerka2 apa yg akan terjadi..
kupejamkan mata..
..

....

kubuka kembali mataku

kutemukan susunan namaku terukir rapi

dalam nisan abu2...

...

aku gak pandai berkata-kata ternyata..

tapi aku punya ruang

tentang khayal...

tentang AKU

TURN

2007-07-20T10:46:00.000+07:00

Boy: antik...tau lagu travis yang Turn ga? punya gak? kalo ada mau dong...........

Antik: Ada tuh Boy, di folder Antik kan dah di share…folder lagu antique – yes – travis.. Endjoy..
...

Dari chatting itu, jadi inget dah lama banget gak dengerin Travis (one of my fav bands)..
Lagu ini sebenernya ada dialbum ke 2 Travis klo gak salah "The Man who"

track number 6, released in 1999,
tapi di masukin lagi di album-contained all theirs hits singles, called " Singles" in Two thousand and four.. Well, sing yuuu...

....

I want to see what people saw.. i want to feel like i felt before.. i want to see the kingdom come.. i want to feel forever young.. iwant to sing.. to sing my song.. iwant to live in a world where i belong.. i want to live.. i will survive.. and i believe that it won't be very long.. if we turn (5x).. then we might learn.. so where's the stars.. up in the sky.. and what's the moon.. a big balloon.. we'll never know unless we grow.. there's so much world outside the door.. i want to sing.. to sing my song.. i want to live in a world where i'll be strong.. i want to live.. i will survive.. and i believe thet it won't be very long.. if we turn (5x).. and if we turn (4x).. then we might learn.. turn (6x).. and if we turn (4x).. then we might learn.. learn to turn..

Photos taken from travisonline.com

Ma men!

2007-07-17T16:40:00.001+07:00

Kayaknya gw bakal tambah cinta ama Fedi Nuril deh, dia mau main film baru : "Ayat2 cinta" (yup, Film ini diangkat dari novel berjudul sama karya Habiburrahman El Shirazy yang mengisahkan tentang kehidupan seorang mahasiswa Indonesia bernama Fahri bin Abdullah Shiddiq yang sedang mengenyam pendidikan di universitas Al-Azhar Mesir. And guess what? Fedi jadi Fahri.. makiiin... makiiin... hihihihihi...

Lundi

2007-07-16T08:26:00.002+07:00

Dulu jaman2nya msih kuliah, monday was not so s**ks deh..

walau ada jadwal kuliah pagi, bisa aja ngambil jatah bolos klo emang lg males2nya banget.. sekarang?

05.45 WIB : bangun tidur juga mata kayaknya gak mau kompromi bgt untuk melek, (padahal klo lagi melek bagus bgt untuk dipandang, katanya.. *ting* ), ambil handuk juga masih dalam keadaan merem, sambil ngebayangin hari ini bukan hari senin, dan berdoa semoga ternyata dalam bulan juli ini terdapat 2 hari minggu yang berurutan... (huh?)

11.05 WIB : OK, this is out of my boundary ability to proofed against hunger.

13.16 WIB : zut! today, bos gw dah balik lagi kekantor dan .. here we go again.. rush hours! ..

17.15 WIB : biasanya jam segini selama 2 minggu kmarin, dah bisa siap2 mau pulang..

17.30 WIB : sick of these kind of subjects.. *sigh mode on*

i hate monday.

Rewind

2007-07-13T13:55:00.001+07:00

Pengen kembali saat gonjang ganjing ituuu... hiks...

ordinary thursday

2007-07-12T14:01:00.003+07:00

ok, apapunlah yah, u have to get ready to read all this crap...
Today, just d ordinary - working - day - and thrusday. masih teu peunting. barusan dikasih tau Akbar the big best friend gw itu klo ada site ok juga untuk bikin blog, called multiply.com ... lebih seru sih emang iya, tapi seems like gw masih enak share hal2 private ditempat ini.. secara i dont have any matters that people should know.. r8?
Bos gw masih still in his mission to Holland and Pekanbaru trus ke Medan, gak terlalu rush like the other normal days- with my bos in the office- of course.. tapi suka jadi kebingungan aja mau kerjain apa..

Sore ini Bandung cerah yah? ...
Bisous,

Check this

2007-07-11T13:45:00.004+07:00

Pneeilitan Tnetnag Craa Bcaa Mnasuia Menuurt sbeauh penilitean di Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, tdaik mejnadi maslaah bgaimanaa urtaun hruuf-hruuf di dlaam sebauh ktaa, ynag palnig pnteing adlaah leatk hruuf partema dan terkhair itu bnaer. Siasnya dpaat brantaaken saam skelai dan kmau maish dpaat mebmacanya tnpaa msaalah. Hal ini kaerna otak manusia tidak membaca setiap huruf masing-masing, tatepi kata keseluruahn. Manejkubakn naggk?
...
:) dapet entah dari mana, ikhlaskan saja yah gak usah pake uang royalti, bagi2 info kan pahala * ting*
...
Nah, gminaa? mbaeca gak buuth ergni bnayk kan? so, plaese raed a LOT gyus.. naggk caepk kok !

je vous presente...

2007-07-09T15:32:00.003+07:00

Okey, dis is my 1st post, so jangan bingung gitu dong ah, kenapa halamannya masih plain gini .. he9.. rencananya sih sama aja kyk isi blog2 lainnya, bakalan berisi dengan kenarsis-an, kebanggaan, kepedulian, kenistaan, keburukan, kecantikan (ting *), kelucuan (ting ting **) ataupun share share teu peunting untuk sekedar menghalau rasa ngantuk dan bosan seperti sekarang ini, kalopun dapat memberikan inspirasi atau informasi yaa, itu mah gak sengaja aja, da' ga ada yang penting.. he9..
Endjoy!